We watched the sun set together more nights than not at GMCH. The world spun, the sun set, the moon took it's place in the sky as my world stopped, a time out of time. I held her, rocking in that wooden chair, holding what I no longer am able to, knowing our time was borrowed and soaking in as much as I could.
My daughter, my love, on nights like tonight when the crimson reds meet the purple skyline, I think of you while watching a "Ruthie Lou sunset". That is where we meet, when the worlds collide and the veil is thin. I know you're with me still. I ask you to come close and I feel you. Some may think I am crazy, a mama missing her daughter so much, I know otherwise. I am lucky, to have known you, to have held you, to forever be gifted with your love and to live for you. Because you are no longer in this world, I will live for the both of us. I will love the life I live more than I would have otherwise.
Thank you, sweet girl.
I am a mama of three beautiful babes; two boys I have the honor of raising and my daughter who lived for 33 sacred days.